Quarter (plus 1) Life Crisis

It's hard to admit it, but most of us, if not, all of us live in a life of regrets. It does not matter how big or small that may be, most of the time we have that thing at the back of our heads that bugs us, that keeps us awake late at night, that keeps us from moving forward. Those missed moments and opportunities constantly haunt us. The 'what ifs' that we will never know, the 'could and should have beens' that will never be and cannot be. Unfortunately for us, time travel is not at the moment possible, we can never go back to that split second that changed our lives entirely, even if we wanted to, even if we prayed to all the gods, we know in our hearts that, what is, is not what was.

There's something about the past that makes us want to forget it but also remember it. We want to go back and yet we want to leave it all behind. Funny, but in order for us to forget, is that first we have to remember. Remember the stupidities that you've made and hope that you don't make the same mistake. Remember the bruises that life brought upon you and learn from it. But it's always easier said than done. We know all about these things, and yet we are still stuck in the corner, tied to the chains of our regrets and sometimes with our fear of letting go and fear of failing again. Sometimes it's just easier to stay in the corner than to try again and knowing that there's a chance for failure, forgetting that there is also high chance of success. 

We were once told that we could do great things, we could change the world, and be whoever that pleases us. Though, this is not entirely true- due to social and political responsibilities and issues- we could still be those things. Being at this age is both exciting and scary. We've done so many things, or at least we think we did, and yet sometimes we do not see the fruits of our labors. It's hard not to compare ourselves, and wish you chose a different and better path. We have been told that we are still too young and yet we are expected of so much. Having your whole life ahead of you is such a terrifying thing to know, especially when you do not even know what you want. Sometimes knowing what you don't want helps, but most of the time, it just leaves you miserable, realizing that what you don't want basically summarizes your whole being. 

Putting aside all these things. We still have to face our lives- get up every morning do our routines and pretend that everything is okay. Because life goes on it does not stop for anyone, and it certainly will not stop for you. Past is past, forget or remember what you want. Regrets are okay as long as you don't dwell on it. Life is hard and it's not a promise that it's going to get easier along the way. Just hope that each day is better than yesterday. There are no good days, just better days.